My childhood trauma makes me obsessed with the idea of a romantic partner.

Since I can remember, I’ve always wanted a relationship. I used to believe it would safe me from the sadness and emptiness I feel inside, due to childhood trauma. But I’ve been in relationships and I’ve been single and Im also older now. I know that romantic love should not be what drives my existence. Nothing drives my passion more and makes me as emotional than romance. I day dream a lot. And its always about being accepted, loved and seen by someone who will never hurt me purposefully. I’ve been hurt so much, but I feel like other things could and should be more interesting than finding a romantic partner.

Maybe it is time to let go of that completely. Im trying to find ways to not think about romances, but its quite hard. Learning to love myself is a journey I’ve been on for quite a while now. Maybe it gets easier when I truly love myself.

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