I’d prefer a nightmare over dreaming about a girlfriend honestly :(

It was one of those nights yesterday: I was cuddling up with some girl I do know irl (my brain picked her for some reason, but I haven’t seen her in a while nor do I have feelings towards her, the brain is weird).

It was soo cute, it was touchy, it was cutesy; just generally everything I do want in a partner…

… Then I woke up 10 minutes before my alarm was supposed to go off, holding my pillow.

I’ve dated around last year with no succes, I’ve had short-term girlfriends before in high schools and I got called “cute” or something along the lines plenty of times but so far I’m still single and dating apps are really getting tiring after being on them on and off since I was 18 (20 now).

Getting in contact with woman outside of dating apps is gonna get even harder once college is over as well in about 3 years, since my profession is going to be in IT, specifically being a sysadmin. And so far the three IT companies I did an internship at were sausage fests…

I just want a special somebody man, I just want somebody to cuddle at night and wake up to the next morning. I want passionate sex and be there for each other through thick and thin.

Anyways, to end this vent what I wanted to get at… At least waking up from nightmares is a relieve, but girlfriend dreams make you start of the day sad.

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