I miss being valued as a person

I ended things with a one night stand turned relationship, and can’t help but feel like he was the love of my life. He was so loving and kind; we’d spend hours talking and laughing together. He believed in me like no one else; he made me feel like I could really make the world a better place. We had to break up because our life goals were incompatible with each other. Before that, I was also in a long term relationship. After being single for about four years, I got back on the scene. I have gone on many dates with people who seem very lovely and attractive, but I don’t think they see me as relationship material. They take me out to dinner, fck me, ad naseum for a couple of weeks/months until they ghost me.

I guess this is just a vent about missing someone caring about me as a person. It has been destroying my self confidence. It’s hard to come from someone telling you how funny, kindhearted, and intelligent you are to hearing compliments like this: “You’re so fcking hot” “I love how tiny your hands are… they make my dick look huge” “I love your ass” …you get it. I just feel so objectified and I miss someone holding me and telling me that they care about me as a person, genuinely, and not just so they can sleep with me. It makes me feel like I’m not worthy of being anything more than a vessel for someone else’s pleasure. Im sorry; I know this is probably silly and that there are worse things are going on. I don’t know why I’m letting this get to me so much. Thank you for letting me get this off my chest.

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